[ At first he's just tense, and pain is just pain. Vaguely turned on, sure, but the first couple of strokes that's in spite of the sting of the cane, not because of.
After that, though, and with the counting, it gradually slides toward something else. It still hurts, yes, and in fact it hurts more, but it's a different kind of thing. It's intense sensation. There's heat, that builds in and under his skin, a jar and almost follow through vibration.
His breathing finds a rhythm that follows the one Cyram is using, with the inhale and on the back swing and exhale with the stroke. His voice in counting goes from military precise to something just a little softer around the edges. His hands on the dresser relax. Not huge stuff, but good stuff.
The side change is about the point he yelps, but it's not a real protest it's a...deeper relaxation of demeanor.
He discovers he likes this (for the intensity and simplicity) in some corner of his brain that isn't... wrapped in softening fog.
Around the fifteenth stroke the 'sir' goes away, though. Nothing intentional just... falling out of his vocabulary. He doesn't stop counting, though. ]
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After that, though, and with the counting, it gradually slides toward something else. It still hurts, yes, and in fact it hurts more, but it's a different kind of thing. It's intense sensation. There's heat, that builds in and under his skin, a jar and almost follow through vibration.
His breathing finds a rhythm that follows the one Cyram is using, with the inhale and on the back swing and exhale with the stroke. His voice in counting goes from military precise to something just a little softer around the edges. His hands on the dresser relax. Not huge stuff, but good stuff.
The side change is about the point he yelps, but it's not a real protest it's a...deeper relaxation of demeanor.
He discovers he likes this (for the intensity and simplicity) in some corner of his brain that isn't... wrapped in softening fog.
Around the fifteenth stroke the 'sir' goes away, though. Nothing intentional just... falling out of his vocabulary. He doesn't stop counting, though. ]