I remember you saying you enlisted early. I almost even understand why.

[ As good as it's getting for him. His response to anyone joining the Peacekeepers was so strong.... He knows this was different, and accepts it, but a gut level aversion to it being a choice is hard. Even when he also knows the choice wasn't one in any real sense of the word.

The rest makes him make a soft noise in his throat, watching the griddle and trying to find words. ]

I think I miss the violence directed at me, sometimes. I'm... more restless than I've been since I got here. I don't like that.