Nothing just annoyed you were right something might be wrong.
I found out the person I thought messed with my memory did in fact do that. Made the memory seem kinder and changed aspects to hide something. The sex was consensual insofar as I was aphro'd out of my head and he offered to stop but I said not to. The kink involved was not consensual, but I pushed him to be rough cause of the drugs
and something to do with wanting pain in a way that's not healthy
like you've said in the past. I'm going to work on it.
So maybe not as bad as first thought but not good.
cw: referenced memory modification, dubcon, unhealthy use of pain/painplay
I found out the person I thought messed with my memory did in fact do that. Made the memory seem kinder and changed aspects to hide something. The sex was consensual insofar as I was aphro'd out of my head and he offered to stop but I said not to. The kink involved was not consensual, but I pushed him to be rough cause of the drugs
and something to do with wanting pain in a way that's not healthy
like you've said in the past. I'm going to work on it.
So maybe not as bad as first thought but not good.