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[notleavingquietly]

You realize you can't help anyone else if you can't remember anything or just wind up more hurt yourself.

[chrisisofaith]

I get that.
I’ve already been playing this game with him, if I pull out now, he’ll either be more suspicious or I’ll lose what in I have.

And when I do corner him, I won’t be by myself. Promise.

[notleavingquietly]

I give you far more credit for knowing it's stupid than for any promise -- and that's if you actually keep it.

[chrisisofaith]

I can’t make it work alone. I’ve already talked with someone.

Out of curiosity alone:
What would you have me do?

[notleavingquietly]

I'm too invested in you staying willing to talk to me to answer that.

[chrisisofaith]

What?
Crais there's very little I can think you'd say that'd have me upset even less to suddenly have me stop talking to you.

I'm too invested in having you at my back to turn it away

[notleavingquietly]

Good.

I don't have an alternative plan. I think anything you do will ultimately accomplish nothing meaningful except getting you and whoever helps you hurt.

I also acknowledge you're going to do it anyway and would probably say something about spiritual death/the person you are/living with yourself.

[chrisisofaith]

I don't intend to torture him
I absolutely could and the thought occurred, but I won't
I also don't intend to kill him, wouldn't do much good
I just want him scared

[notleavingquietly]

I didn't mean you were going to regret doing something because you were going to do something immoral. I meant I think you're going to regret it because it won't be effective and is just going to lock you into an endless cycle of this shit and whoever this person in has the ability to alter your memories.

[chrisisofaith]

Without being able to tell you who it is, trust me that i've been watching him long enough to know he can respect a power play made
he doesn't think much of me right now, this will likely gain that attention back

i've no interest in a viscous cycle that sees both sides burned, just a stalemate of understanding

[notleavingquietly]

Ok.

[chrisisofaith]

ok you don't believe me or ok i'm doing this either way so there's no use further discussing?

[notleavingquietly]

Both. I'm not angry - or disappointed, if that's a concern.

[chrisisofaith]

I appreciate the clarification, it was a small concern.
I also appreciate you listening even if you don't agree.

[notleavingquietly]

I didn't work this hard to get you to use words to communicate with me, to not listen when you do!

[chrisisofaith]

You're gods blessed with patience

[Sarcasm aside-]

You know how much your advice means to me, right? In general, not just this. It's helped me many times and I imagine it'll keep doing so.

[notleavingquietly]

I do. Stop being nice to me it's confusing.

[chrisisofaith]

Youre an asshole and nosy

Better?

[notleavingquietly]

Much. Thank you.

[chrisisofaith]

You're welcome and I love you, even if you’re a pain in the ass sometimes. Maybe because of

[notleavingquietly]

I love you too. Try not to die.