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I have no idea why you're sorry you typed his name.

I don't dislike him but anyone who 'needs' to be told no has so little in common with Cyram as to be functionally a different species.

Cause literally the only person who knows I love him is him. Maybe Nate, not sure, and now you. But it probably should stay that way.

Yeah, no, having talked to Cy all of once I can assure you they're nothing alike.

Well, other than stupid, as previously mentioned.

There are different brands of idiot, too, unfortunately.

Unfortunately. Some brands I handle better than others.

You want a different, less stupid topic besides idiot boys?

Unless you want to listen to me go on about Cyram, yes.

Like why the number of people I love was surprising.

I got the impression you didn't like talking about Cyram's stuff, I wasn't going to ask, but I'll listen to anything you've got. Unless that's just for the god stuff.

It was surprising when I thought we were talking In Love, not general love. I'm not surprised you love that many people, you're finally allowed to, makes sense you'd go all in, either that or avoid it like plague.

I won't reveal Cyram. That doesn't mean I won't talk about him -- or loving him.

But I'd much rather you explain what exactly in love means, when contrasted against loving.

I thought we agreed you were an alien and didn't want to deal with this shit.

But alright. Two birds one stone:

Why did you marry Cyram but not anyone else you love?

Because they're idiots in a way that would make me kill them, I don't actually trust most of them, and most of them aren't dominants.

You don't trust them as much, they don't make you as happy, you don't feel as safe with them as you do with him?

That's a long string of conclusions from 'I don't trust them as much', but it's fairly accurate.

Fairly.

With the caveat that you understand at least half of them are some sort of psychotic.

Whatever, you keep weird company. Those were examples, not conclusions, but you agree so you get my point.

Which means you can maybe see the difference between love and in love.

All right, then, I'm in love with one person and while being insane isn't a dealbreaker not actually being dominant is.

And I do mean full time, all the time, and without a masochistic streak.

I think I know two of those in this city.

There you go, that makes more sense to me; you're big on trust and limits and such, putting yourself out there with six or seven people seemed like a lot.

Who's the other one?

His name's Washington. File under 'psychopath'.
Do not engage lightly. the sex is fantastic, though.

I haven't met him.
I'm sure the sex is great but you actually like when people you don't trust make you submit and like tie you up.
I would have less than a good time. Unless it was just rough, that'd be fine.

Still good to know.

I resent everything about that.

You can resent it doesn't mean you don't resemble it in some way.

I will occasionally let someone I don't trust tie me up, if given very, very good reason. No one has ever made me submit and if they did I would absolutely not enjoy it.

Context

If I don't trust them and they're tying me up, it's likely to feel like they're making me submit.

Might not be the same for you but your limits are shaped different than mine. I'll let someone bend me over if they work for it or ask pretty, but they go for my hands and I'm flipping things faster than they can blink.

Yes, we've talked about that. Limitations are different, but I still don't let people I don't trust make me do anything. That isn't submission.

And it's moderately insulting though I'll chalk that up to language differences since the rhythm of yours often catches me off guard.

No, it's not.

Sorry, I don't mean to imply anything untoward.
Just trying to wrap my head around submitting to someone you don't trust to do it right.

Oh. No. Sorry. I do trust Washington to do dominance and sadism right.

I don't trust him in much more general terms. I think he'd stab me in an ally, but not hurt me inside a scene.

He seems to use kink as a means of... controlling himself. That's something I'm familiar with and trust more than most to be very, very precisely correct in doing it.

Oh

ok

Yes that makes a lot more sense and is entirely fair. A few I'd trust with me but not with other things like basic safety concerns otherwise.

Is there anything that would make you submit to someone you didn't trust?

Are we discounting the city's mechanizations for purposes of this conversation?

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