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[chrisisofaith]

No! Not at all, I just wasn't expecting the number to be as high, you're one of my few people with sense.

And great. Grand. I'm realizing the same.

[notleavingquietly]

Yes, but you're one of the idiots.

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[chrisisofaith]

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Crais, if we include the people we generally love to the people we're in love with, the ratios get horribly skewed and even worse on the stupid vs. not stupid thing. I was talking in love with.

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[chrisisofaith]

For record, I love you too, but that's not quite the same.

I think. Maybe.

[notleavingquietly]

I'm an alien from a culture that doesn't allow any form of attachment. The only line I have between sorts of love is 'would sleep with' and 'would not'.

Stop making it complicated.

[chrisisofaith]

Gods you're the worst

[notleavingquietly]

But not an idiot, so I'm still winning.

[chrisisofaith]

That depends, how're you treating the constant headache for all the idiots you love?

[notleavingquietly]

I'm enjoying the lack of boredom that would inevitably lead to murder if I didn't insert myself in their bullshit.

[chrisisofaith]

Why're you better at this than me?

I want to murder because of their bullshit

[notleavingquietly]

Lower your expectations and stop taking their stupidity personally.

[chrisisofaith]

Lowered expectations I can do. Rest
I don't take well when my people don't care for themselves at the standard I expect.

It's fine, not like I can stop loving them either way.

[notleavingquietly]

You are a politician. You are manipulative. Both imply you understand people and their motivations.

[chrisisofaith]

Oh well fuck me, didn't realize i'd stepped in a spotlight. go on then

You're not wrong, but damn

[notleavingquietly]

Then call out the self-destructive behavior, know the motivation and accept them where they are. Yell, but then let it go. Because it isn't about you.

[chrisisofaith]

Alright. That's what I'm doing. I hope it's helping.

At least, for the calling out, I pick who and when. Not enough in me to take them all up.

[notleavingquietly]

You're not doing the letting it go part.

[chrisisofaith]

I'm pretty sure I've made it clear suck at letting things go

I'm working on it.

[notleavingquietly]

Oh good, I'd hate to think you were making that part of your identity or confusing it with letting people go.

[chrisisofaith]

No, I'm a manipulative politician and ruler who has a bird motif and prays to the god of the dead and also I'm great at sex and a stubborn ass, that's my identity.

I've only tried to let someone go once cause loving them hurt too much and he didn't love me back. More the fool me, I'm still in love with him and he still doesn't love me back.

[notleavingquietly]

I had no idea 'loved back' was part of the criteria. I may never understand humans.

Cyram and I had one argument. One. It was a bad one. It was because I was pissed that he was self-destructive but more so that I was trying to fix it.

[chrisisofaith]

Sorry to break the news: we're a mess and hearts are foolish things. It's fine, Ive accepted he doesn't need to love me back. It just is.

That fight's why you've stopped trying to fix it or did he ask you to stop?

[notleavingquietly]

I stopped trying to fix shit because I realized it was making my crap his problem.

He started wearing a tracking bracelet so I wouldn't exist in a continual state of panic.

[chrisisofaith]

I don't know this is the same, but I understand

I've fought with Jon five times in the last month I'm pretty sure, but I'm not likely to stop, I think he needs someone telling him no.

[notleavingquietly]

Oh, it's Jon.

You're right, that is different.